Memories of him

I have a confession to make.

Til today, I can't bring myself to watch our wedding video.

Why?

Because I cried and it was captured.

LOL!

Kidding..

Yes, I cried but it was tears of joy.

I was very touched by the video that our friends were "forced" to say a few words about us.

But today, if I watch our wedding video, it won't be tears of joy. I can only watch the wedding up til before my dad appears.

Once he's on... tears just come rolling down. 

Such a softy I am.. 

I know I can't keep going on this way. I've "put aside" a lot of things that reminds me of him.

Can't seem to toughen up.

Perhaps some day I will, some day it won't hurt so badly.

My late father was such a sport on our wedding day.

He played his "role" standing at the stairs "blocking" hubby's way.

He checked hubby's "letter of promise" and even asked him to add one last sentence before allowing him to go upstairs.

Happy Birthday Daddy.

Every year I wish I could say this to you and hug you.

And hear you say "Thank you."

It's my 4th year telling you Happy Birthday virtually.

I know that there will never be a day that I will get to hug you and hear you say Thank You again.

I will just settle for what I have for now.

Happy Birthday Daddy.

I love you..

so much that I still cry when I write about you.

Have a great time with God. 

:)

Making Baby #3: Poser Baby

I think I posted a fair share about James when he was growing up. So I feel like I owe Lucas this much... to have one post that is only about him.

LOL.

But if you follow my Dayre, you can see that I speak more of Lucas than James now. #horriblemama
Dunno how to "balance". :P

Anyway.. I just realized that Lucas is so good at posing. Especially if you use the front camera and show him.. him. hahhaa
#selfiebaby

Here's evidence of his ability to pose.

The "I hate car seats but I'm forced to sit in it" Face.

The "I can go anywhere I want by just flashing you a smile" Face.

The "this pillow is MINE" Face.

The "what happen to my hair" Face.

The "I only love to eat biscuits, don't you dare snatch it away from me" Face.

The "sweet dreams" Face.

And here's a photo taken by a lady we met at a coffee place.

She said he's very handsome  (a very sweet girl at first, before hubby corrected her and said that he's a boy!)

So she came over and took some photos.She used the front camera.. selfie style.

She made the right move..selfie baby is a selfie expert.

But I have to say, her phone camera is quite good!

(It's a Samsung btw. :P)

If you're wondering how come we got the photo, she sent it to hubby right after taking them.

Yes, it does feel weird to have a stranger taking photos of my baby. But when she told hubby that "the greatest pleasure today was to see that perfect smile from Lucas." made me realized that not everyone out there is out to harm you.

I've read that we don't realize how much a smile would mean to a stranger. It actually saves lives!

but of course, I'm not implying that she was going to end hers. I don't know her.

I'm just saying that.. probably she had a bad day and seeing Lucas made it all better for her. You never know what a simple smile (in this case a cheerful baby) could mean to others. 

Here's to many more smiles (pose) from this boy. 

I love my cheerful babies. :))

(sorry.. have to end it with "babies" instead of "baby"... I can't ignore the fact that I have two happy babies. :) )

Here we go again!

I'd usually start my "first post" after a long time with my sons.. I'm gonna make it a little different this time. Tell you about my husband.

He's not very interesting actually and not cute. (Not cute doesn't mean not handsome.. ahhh!!.)
BUT he deserves some "limelight" (even if he doesn't want to) cause I spent almost 11 years with him. :O

More than a decade with one man???!!!???
Ok la.. I spent 2.5 decades with my dad. So he's got like 15 years to break my dad's record. :P

We've been officially married for 5 years now. What has changed?

We look a lot older of course.

LOL.

Kinda like pointing out the obvious.

The other obvious thing is that both of has grown side ways but of course, hubby looks a lot better and I look just... like a lady that is pregnant all the time.

There's been a lot going on at home.. over the many years what we've been living apart on weekdays and now that hubby's back in KL, we also have our struggles.

But I'm glad to be going through tough times with him cause when he's not calm, I am and when I'm not, he is. That's what they called "balanced marriage" y'all! 

WTH.. no such thing as "balanced marriage" la..

Ask any married old couple, they will tell you is about patience,tolerance, sometimes one-sided , sometimes both sides explode and definitely, shit happens laaaa. Got perfect couple one meh? Don't think so lor.

Anyway, I don't think I should bore you about my marriage and my hubby (told you he's not an interesting person)... :P

Here are cuter and more interesting photos!

Firstly, here's our elder boy. He's 4 years and 3.5months old. I was just telling hubby that being a SAHM, I get to watch my kids grow but I get kinda emotional watching them grow so fast. It's like.. "what happen to my bubbly baby?"

Ok, he's still a cheerful boy and he does and says all sorts of funny things that just make you just forget about your stressful day.

A selfie with the elder boy.

He's so skinny now!!

Where has all the chubbs gooonnnnneeee???

but he eats quite a lot, even more than me!

How commmmeeee??

He's now 19.1 kg.

All skin and bones but still not easy on my arms when he wants/needs to be carried.

He's grown up that he knows how to do a lot of things by himself.

Like wearing his own socks and shoes. 

Automatically washing hands after food or if he finds himself dirty.

Helping me out with Lucas when he sees that Lucas has done his business on his potty.

Such a good big brother he is.

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Making funny poses with a friend in a clinic.

They don't look sick when they see each other la.

Boys will be boys.. 

Here's Lucas. He's now 8months and 5 days old. Only about 9kg. A little on the smaller side compared to James when he was an infant. But it doesn't really matter cause James was mostly formula milk fed and Lucas is breastfed til now. So I guess it's not an apple to apple comparison and as long as they are both healthy, doesn't matter if it's breast milk or formula milk la.

At about 7.5months, he could sit down quite steadily and play.

Not necessarily on his own.

This boy wants people to accompany him all the time and most of time, he wants me.

Another double-sided tape in the making.

OOops.. didn't realize this photo is so blur but I'm gonna post it anyway la.

Most people asks me if he's a girl/boy.

why ar? So girl-ish meh his looks?

And many times, people tell me .."Your baby got boy-ish look."

Ermmm... He's a boy!!

Spending time with him on the floor.

He's got really charming eyes.

Every time I look at his photo, I'm mesmerized. 

LOL.

He's also learnt to self feed... biscuits.

Why they grow up so fast one???

Whatever he can grab, it goes straight into his mouth.

So this is considered the dangerous "phase" cause he is mobile (he crawls around very quickly) and the fact that he puts anything that he can find into his mouth is worrisome.

So we have to keep an eye on him all the time.

Which makes things a little difficult for me cause the only time I can get things done is when he's asleep.

So thank God he takes long naps when he's suppose to.

And a selfie!

He's getting really good at selfies now. 

All my fault.. I know.

Hubby and I are superbly proud of our sons.

They both are cheerful babies.

Both have a character and personality of their own.

I guess being parents, the proudest thing is to have both of them loving each other.

They really look forward to see each other every morning and every time after James finishes school.

James is just as excited to get home and Lucas gets so excited when he sees James walking in.

As a SAHM, I get to prepare my own meals... and lately, I'm on like a "sandwich phase" and can be an ambassador for Massimo Wheat Germ bread cause I buy like 2 loaves every week! :P

Actually, sandwiches are the easiest to prepare cause it's fast and not much cleaning to be done.

(Time is precious ok!)

I've had so many sandwiches over the last few weeks that I can open Sandwich shop d. hahaha.. 

Smoked Salmon with Egg and Alfalfa Sandwich.

Grilled Cheese Sandwich.

Ham, Grilled pineapple, Wild Rocket and Arugula.

Grilled Pineapple, Pesto Chicken and Alfalfa Sandwich.

Smoked Salmon, Baby Spinach, Alfalfa and Cheese Sandwich.

Banana and Kaya Sandwich.

Baked beans and Telur Mata Kerbau Sandwich

Told you I can start selling sandwiches. 

hahahaha..

and be an ambassador for bread.

I also enjoy making Frittatas now. Cause I make one time and can eat like 4 meals. It can be kept over 1-2days.

Baby Spinach, Onions and Tomatoes Frittata.

Cauliflower, Broccoli and Onions Frittata.

I call the my #lazymama dishes cause sandwiches and Frittata are so easy to prepare that it's really meant for lazy mothers like me. :P

 ANNNNNDDDDDDD...
I finally went back to the kitchen and "re-heat" my oven!
SOOOOOO HAPPPPYYY!!!

Thanx to my sis cause she requested for a cake for her birthday. hahahaha..
I'm glad that I manage to pace myself and found time to bake. It's all about time management!! (che wah!)

A lovely cake which I think looks more like a wedding cake.

Vanilla Cake with Strawberry Buttercream.

How it looks inside.

I added some heart shaped sprinkles in it. 

Shouldn't have cause it looks like it's got red pimples everywhere.

Nevermind, now that I know.. I won't do it again!

Only add colourful sprinkles!

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So long for now! hopefully it won't take me another 6 months to write my next post. :P