He is just 2 hours drive away...

It's our first day apart.. starting our new life "together".

The moment I stepped into our house, I felt the emptiness already. Just broke down immediately. I think Nougy knows that I'm not happy too, he started kissing me and whining when I locked him out. Poor boy, not going to be able to play with his dada all the time now.

I'm feeling much better now. After crying non-stop for 20-30mins. I have to be strong for our future. It's just a matter of getting used to. We'll be able to make it through.

Stressed... perhaps?

It's 6.20am and I'm awake! should I curse?

I really feel like sleeping cause every week day I've been complaining that I don't get enough sleep. And now that I get the chance to wake up later than normal days.. I can't sleep! F***!

The first thing that came to mind.. perhaps I'm stressed? My tummy had some acidic feeling last night. Took a pill and I dosed off. Perhaps I have to take another pill now. F***! Am I suppose to take the pill til the day comes?

I'm cursing more than usual this morning. Not in my best mood but I know I have to control myself. I have errands to run later. F***! I really hope I don't say the wrong words later. don't want things between hubby and I to turn bad today cause when we are alone together, the time is precious.

SHIET! I better try to rest my mind... ARRGGgHHhh! I know Han will ask me why later.. 

OK.. Yi Lei.. take a deep breath... and breathe... in and out... and... GO TO BED! shiets.. i'm talking to myself. sigh... Help?

Just when it's getting near..

It's one and a half months to go.. and my mum is getting on my nerves.. BIG TIME!

1st: She hasn't settled her dress for the reception. Still delaying.. and only God knows why.

2nd: She hasn't found her attire for church. Still delaying .. and again.. only God knows why.

3rd: She don't know whether my dad's tailor can find a matching material to his jacket. Still delaying.. and only God knows why.

4th: She decided to have tea ceremony because her friend said something. I told her that I've scheduled it to be before dinner at the hotel (scheduled it even though my mum initially insist she doesn't want one but of course, i know her better.). However, she didn't like the idea. WANTS IT IN THE MORNING! Now, i have to re-schedule my whole agenda for the day because of a fickle-minded self! yes.. only God knows why.

Oh dear God, I really pray that this is the end of the procrastinating and the fickle mind. I really do want to have fun on our day.  

Our house warming..

We threw a house warming party on 1st Nov 2008. It was really tiring for Han & I but we enjoyed ourselves. Didn't get to talk long with everyone who came (sorry peeps)... but I guess they all understood that it wasn't easy to be taking care of so many groups. :)) We had about 50 people over. Han's parents, my parents, my mum's relatives who are staying in SJ, my dad's bro & family and our friends!

I cooked the "Ayam Goreng Rempah" (a secret recipe from Han's mum) and Spaghetti. Sue & Joan came over early to cook "Really Garlicky Chicken".Unfortunately, I didn't take photos of the food! YIKES!

My mum cooked two dishes. One steamed vegetable and another vegetarian mixed vegetables. :) 

We ordered a roast lamb (which was really yummy and we still had a quarter of the lamb in the freezer.), fried meehoon and fruit tartlets. My mum's friend (Aunty Adeline) made swiss rolls & cheese tarts (which everyone really loved!). Sen Chee helped me make jellies. :))

We had a lot of left over.(Only the Spaghetti was wiped clean) But we threw a lot of them away especially the meehoon. Next time, I shall not have so many variety. 

Here are some photos that I took..(and I don't think any of our friends took photos on that day, except for my Uncle Ping and cousin, Elijah)

We made these little gifts for our guests.

With CG, Joan, Sue & Andy

With the Woo Family

With my besties from Form 6

With my UOB colleagues

With the Tan family & June (Cheng Whuah's gf)

OUR GIFTS!! WEeeeee!! :))

We gave out those little boxes of raisins & crispy together with our wedding invites. :)) 

YUP YUP! Our wedding invite is ready! Suresh, Sue & Joan helped us put them together before the house warming party. Suresh was the "ribbon burner". Sue & Joan were the people tying the ribbons. hehehehe..

The printer made a mistake, didn't print enough maps to the church. But luckily they printed 30 maps and it was just nice for all the people that came to our house! :P

OH! and i also found out that my wedding gown is ready for fitting!! my evening gown will be ready for fitting by this week.. so i'll most probably do the fitting next week! :)))

This Saturday is another big day.It's my bestie, Syaza's wedding!! WOoHHOOOOoo! Me going to help her out from tomorrow til Friday. Hope I'll be of good help.. :P

Syaza's Birthday & random of everything

We celebrated Syaza's 25th on the 25th. It was a fantastic day! We wanted to bring her to My Elephant, a Thai restaurant at Section 17 for lunch, but it was closed! Surprisingly. So we had to come up with a SUPER QUICK back up plan. So we brought her to Sri Ayuthaya at Pusat Bandar Damansara.

The Birthday Girl taking a look at the menu.

All of us at Ayuthaya. You can see our reflections on the Lazy Susan. :)

After lunch, we blind folded her to Pusat Reflexology Hartamas, Sri Hartamas. All of us went for a body message & foot reflexology. That's when Sulo & Zima's laughing gland were activated.. hhahaha..

My feet wrapped like a turban

The 4 of us while waiting for our turn. Zima was our camera woman. :)

After the massage, we blind folded Syaza again and brought her to Peninsula, KL. Sulo tried to convince her that we are going to Genting. Of course she failed. haha.

She didn't open her eyes immediately after Sulo removed the blind fold.

This is when the water works came in. ahaha. I was trying so hard not to cry too. I failed. :P

Us on the Princess Coach.

FUN FUN FUN!

More photos are uploaded on my FB (which is taking FREAKING LONG!).

Once again, Best Wishes to Syaza! *hugs* to you babe.. :))

The random things..

Suresh came over last Friday. He brought 4 bottles of wine. We had 2 at home. So we tasted all 6 types of wine. Just to choose the "perfect" one for our wedding. :P

This is Fern's full moon gift. :))

Just love the packaging and of course the food inside.. haha

This Durian Puff we bought from Oh Papa, Damansa Uptown. It's nice! and we were surprised that it had so much filling inside. :)

Just to acknowledge my confusion in my last post. I still can't reveal the news. It hasn't been confirmed yet but it's heading towards it. We hope it'll work out. Praying very hard for it to work out. My colleague knew that i'm feeling confused (she don't know the news). She advised me to choose to be Tigger, no matter what happens. She got this motivation from this guy....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R9ya9BXClRw

I'm very inspired by him. He passed away in July 2008. Before he left for heaven, he gave lots of lectures about life and he did it all for his 3 young sons. After watching this video, I chose to always be Tigger. :))

confusing day...

It was fantastic news! we have been waiting for it.. but now.. I just feel.. happy & sad. Is it possible to feel that way? maybe that's how people came up with the sentence.. "tears of joy". ahahhaha..

Well, I can't exactly break the news just yet. I'll have to wait til next week. I really hope I don't jinx it. but it does look like 90% confirmed. sigh.

so should I be happy or sad?

And I guess due to this confusion, I ate a lot today. which I'm not suppose to! I haven't been losing weight.. and I only have like 2 months! hahahaa.. 

well, i think i'll give up in the end. Just be myself.. don't care whether I turn out FAT in photos. haha.. YA RITE Yi Lei!

Well, I'm looking forward to some events happening in the next coming weekends! :))

Now these events are not that confusing.. hahahahaha..

Make-up artist hired!

My make-up artist came to our house last night. He was very nice. He did a free trial and wasn't expecting me to hire him on the spot! (maybe that's his trick!) :)

Anyhows, i liked his work. He didn't put a whole inch of make up on my face, which is something that i'm very particular about. And the other thing that i'm fussy about is, i don't want too much colours.

He did mention that i have very small eyes, so we need more make up to correct the "imperfection". And I also have very soft, fine & short hair. So i'll definitely need extensions on "THE DAY". sigh..

Here's a photo of me last night,

Please ignore the silly hair. He brushed it all to one side so that I can see the full make up. and also only one side of my eye has fake eye lashes. Guess which one. :P

This will be my reception do. He said that the lights are going to be dimmer during dinner, so i'll need more emphasis on my eyes. :)

I received a few comments after showing it to several people:

1) my dad: "Hey don't look like you. Look like Julia Roberts." (because of the "HUGE" smile.)

2) my mum: "Are you sure this is you??? You look so thin."

3) my colleague: "OMG, you look so different! your face look very big here. You look like a guy!"

4) my other colleague: "Hey who is this? You ar?? sure or not??"

OK OK.. once and for all, yes this is me! and yes, i have to learn how to not have such a HUGE smile. practise practise practise.. makes perfect!

and yes, i need to remind my make-up artist not to sweep all of my hair up if not i'll look like a man and a woman with such a huge square face! *think for once, i have to blame my dad for passing on the square face. :P *

Anyway, I like it. so I texted him and hired him today. :))

Ok.. One down.. the next, our wedding invites! :)

Saturday is coming to an end..

I just came back from Fern's place. We went to her house in Seremban to pay her a visit as she has just given birth to a baby girl. :)

The baby is so cute! She has small eyes.. haha..:) It's sweet to see Mummy & Baby together.

Only 5 of us went to her place. Aemy was the driver. then Lai Mei, June & Josephine were sitting behind and I was the "navigator". haha. We had fun! Fern's mum cooked fried rice & chicken wine which was EXCELLENT! haha..

On another note..

my cousin, Zhao Yi was admitted into the hospital on Thursday. She was vomited for 3 days in a row and finally she couldn't take the pain anymore. She was diagnosed with appendicitis. Just when we thought that would be it, her Dr suspected that she's abnormal as she has developed breast & pubic hair at such a young age. The Dr then scheduled for her to go for a MRI on Friday to check if there's any tumor blocking her pituitary gland. Unfortunately, they found one. Now she'll have to undergo another surgery to remove the tumor. She will be admitting into UMMC on Monday to do bone scans, blood tests and etc. I pray that she'll be strong to go through the surgery.

Please pray for her to recover & to stay strong. She was so strong and she did not shed a tear.

Well, I have to be strong too! so we have to keep living every day as it is and to make her feel as comfy as possible. Saturday is coming to an end soon.. I wish it hasn't as my house is still in A MESS!

Going to pick Han up now! YAYyyy.. the husband is back!! yipppppeeeee.. *jumps for joy*

back at work.. after 5 "rest" days

It's weird that Monday is always harder to go through.

I had an interesting one though. The moment my supervisor stepped into office, she gave us all the work that we are suppose to correct & update. Well, don't blame her as my colleague and I were both away on Friday.

Also had 50 mails to clear in my mailbox. (JUST ONE DAY away! and F-I-F-T-Y!! goodness..)

Then I also found out that my appraisal is TODAY! hahaha.. congratulations Yi Lei, you are so not prepared for it! hahahaa..

but it went well. My boss was just telling me what I should be doing in the next few years and the areas that I should keep going strong!

I have no intention to leave the company. I don't know why, I just don't have that urge to LEAVE! I mean, at times I do feel very drained by the work load, people & etc (please be reminded that I'm human). but nothing has actually pushed me to say "OK! I'm looking for another job now!"

I guess I've fallen into the comfort zone, which may be very dangerous. It could mean that my personal development could come to an end.

I do have the intention to take a step forward, move to another department & learn new things. 

BUT.. I also have the intention to study early child education, Montessori and fulfill my dream of opening a montessori. My dream is also to introduce fun to children in the coming generation. 

I feel deeply for children between the age 3-6years. They didn't have the chance to have REAL FUN like I did. I didn't even know what exam was til I went to Primary 1. All I knew was, Play & have a happy childhood. Perhaps that's why our life span is getting shorter due to the amount of stressed introduced at such an early age.

I always wonder, is being smart SO BLARDEE IMPORTANT to a parent? til their children have to give up HAPPY & FUN childhood for books & exams?

Perhaps I don't feel the importance as I grew up fine, no criminal records, went to a well known local university, obtained a degree in Economics, got a stable job in a foreign bank, got married and soon to start a family of my own. 

My parents never emphasized that I must be super smart. They never a time pushed me to study til my eyes fall off (except the times where I MUST complete my school homework. even that, my mum will ask me whether it's a MUST to finish). They do give me life lessons. Like I must be street wise, wise in spending money, wise in making my decisions, know what I need and what I want so that I would think the practical way but never once they said.. YOU MUST SCORE STRAIGHT A's!! Thank God! 

I think if they set the "Straight A's" mark for me.. I'll just commit suicide! hahahahaa..

Well, I guess times are different now. Everyone is turning more k-i-a-s-u. Everyone wants their children to be the best, the smartest, the-everything-but-the-worst.

But.. does this give them the rights to rob their FUN & HAPPY childhood away?

Well, I would probably understand how they feel when I become a parent. One thing is for sure, it's my responsibility to make sure my children had FUN & HAPPY childhood. 

Fridge break down!

Our refrigerator decided to take a break from freezing. all our ice cream melted last night and it was a sad thing for us. hahaa.. not devastated but we were looking forward to have some ice cream with brownies! :P

My uncle came over to repair it. He said it's temporary and will see if this works. if not, he'll have to pump in some gas. 

On another note, I built this (picture below) yesterday. Han was doing it half way then I went down to take over. hahaa. cause I like fixing stuff. :P I'm thinking of getting another one just to put A4 sized papers & documents. :)) but this is kinda expensive. perhaps I shall get a plastic one then.. hehee.. cheapers and less fuss! :P

Time to send naughty Tomo for grooming! :)