Sunday, February 19, 2012

Making Baby #2: Our angel baby

I wanted to blog more about my journey in trying for our 2nd child. Unfortunately, I don't think I have the strength to go through week by week knowing the truth.

The truth is, I was already 15 weeks pregnant when I first blogged about my 2nd baby. I waited til it was stable before announcing it to the wireless world.

The saddest truth is, I lost my baby at 17 weeks. We only found out about it yesterday. I cried my heart out the moment we stepped out of the clinic. My heart stopped when I couldn't see the baby's heartbeat and we were just to overwhelmed when our Dr said that he has bad news. The baby stopped growing and it's only the size of a 13 weeks baby.

No words could have described how we felt then but as time passes by, we got stronger.

Wouldn't have so much courage to write this post if it wasn't for the people below:

I'm very thankful to be blessed with a supportive husband. As much as people think that it's the mother that feels the pain but I believe the father feels it too. After all, the baby is also part of him. He felt the pain too but he stayed composed and allowed me to just.. grieve.

I'm also truly blessed with amazing family (my own and my in-laws) and friends. They stayed strong for us, felt our pain, called us and sent us words of encouragement. We must have done something good to be blessed with such caring and loving people around us.

The pillar of my life, God. For as long as I have faith, He will not leave me in sorrow and I know He has a plan for us.  "Lord is Good; His mercy is everlasting." (Psalm 100:5)

And finally, this cheerful boy. He of course is too young to know what happened. With him being himself, I can really just stay strong and positive.

I do break down once in a while but I know time and God will heal us.
"He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds... Great is our Lord, and mighty in power.." (Psalm 147:3)

Don't feel awkward when you talk to me about your babies or pregnancies.I'll be so happy to hear your stories and excitement. Feel free to ask me how am I. It's easier to move forward when you head back to reality. :)

I will be going through natural birth to remove the fetus tomorrow. Please pray for us that the procedure will go smoothly. The power of prayer is the greatest.
"Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you." (Matthew 7:7)